You start expecting crops of winter only when the coldest days have passed. A lot of work should have been done before, and even more awaits you in the future, but at some point you start seeing the silhouettes on the horizon and you know, yes, this is it, this is the future I’ve always wanted, and I’m steadily moving towards it.
My future outlines three things for me.
The gamedev studio. I’ve talked to people I’d love to work with, and they are excited. I’ve written a lot of good code for the game prototype and will soon start the playtests. There are hard days when I slack and don’t want to do menial refactoring work, but most days are full of thrill. I’m not only making progress with the game but also reclaiming my ability to have joy as a software engineer, something I could have completely lost over the darker, uninspired periods of my career.
The Japanese language. It’s been a dream of mine to learn it since I was 19. I made a few attempts back then but soon abandoned it, having a lot of work studying English and being full-time employed. Now, there’s newly lit fire burning in me. Learning also yields more easily to me, now that I have somewhat mastered one language.
The fit and skilled body. This one is simple. There are quite many things I love doing physically, and the more I do them, the more I love them. Bouldering, juggling, kenjutsu, lifting, running, you name it. Plus, workouts grant me a ton of energy to spend on the first two priorities, gamedev and Japanese.
And so I go, dedicated and determined but at the same time almost carefree and relaxed, into the foreseeable future. Let it be bright for all of us.